I made a contract with myself last night as follows.
I will for the period of one month, eat only when hungry and stop eating when unhungry. I will do this with support that I will gather. I will appreciate myself when I succeed and analyze when I fail so that I can learn from it.
Now I think I also need to remember to make this possible I will have to manage my stress. I had a rough night last night because of the boyfriend. Is he a boyfriend. He's definitely a male and a friend. He has my heart in his hands, But occasionally he wants to change me some and I don't even know if it's possible. He sees what he sees and doesn't get the whole picture. So he thinks that the whole vegetarian thing is a little out there and it couldn't be possible that eating salt is recommended for people with Neuro cardiogenic syncope.
So this morning I sent him some links. See I'm not making it up, a doctor did say this to me and it totally works to keep me vertical. Horizontal could be desirable if it was any other man. So I wrote him a note and I feel better. It may be that I have to argue with him a few times before he realizes that I really do monitor my health with finesse. It's difficult to balance the desires of all the various and sundry physicians with their desires to support well one organ or another. The ONLY thing they all agree on is Lose weight girl.
So I will eat only when hungry and stop eating when unhungry for the period of one month. And I will speak up when I feel crazy about stuff. I just have to. I have to stop letting things go..
- Okay I'll tell...